I used to think that if I looked carefully at myself, my secret fears would be confirmed: I’d see that I am hopelessly flawed and unworthy. AA has shown me that if I face the effects of alcoholism by working the steps, this belief will fade away. As a result, I discovered that the truth I’ve avoided is my own inner beauty.
I am powerless to change the fact that alcoholism has affected my life. Only a Power greater than myself can overcome the effects of this disease. In steps two and three, I ask that Power for help. These steps help me to trust that, although the ground on which I stand may be shaky, I will not fall. I am held firmly by One whose will is not so easily overturned. Regardless of how shaky I feel, I am safe.
Such a spiritual foundation makes a truly searching and fearless moral inventory possible. Only when I risk taking a close look at myself can my fears give way to the truth. As a child of God, I am all I need to be – loving and loveable. Spending time everyday to strengthen my relationship with my Higher Power has brought be closer to seeing my own inner beauty. We all have the ability to shine and many positive aspects, when we look for them with God’s help and the guidance of our loving peers in the AA fellowship. When I forget that I have more assets than liabilities, my brothers and sisters in Alcoholics Anonymous remind me.Share post