Normally my sponsor would recommend a gratitude list when I felt low. However, one day I was complaining about a family situation and how sad I was about my estrangement. She suggested that I do a 10th step and list my grievances. Several days later, when my depression lifted, I noticed what a wonderful week I was having. When I relayed this to my sponsor, she suggested I write a gratitude list so that I could refer to next time I was feeling down.
I put the new list in the same drawer I kept my journal and other papers. I noticed the list of complaints I had were almost identical to my gratitude list. The same people, same house, same life. Nothing about my circumstances had changed except the way I felt about them. For the first time I truly understood how much my attitude dictates the way I experience the world.
I recognize how powerful my mind can be. I can’t always feel good, and I have no interest in whitewashing my difficulties by pasting a smile on my face. But I can recognize that I am constantly making choices about how I perceive my world. With the help of Alcoholics Anonymous and my friends in the fellowship, I can make those choices more consciously and more actively than ever before.Share post